Trinity: the investigation of Loricious

I am exhausted from today and I am now shows why: I have not had a religious allergies medication information.

(I) has not been officially diagnosed with specifics of mainly because that my doctors in the past was, "Oh, well, here are some of the nasal spray cans. no matter what it is, only to shoot it."

I am Kinda through the whole "only to lifestyle and fuggetaboutit" mainstream docs attitude in recent times.They want to see only the symptoms, but does not deal with the problem to help alleviate. but what to me to turn off my face for less actually does not delete anything.What about the other aspects of the problem at hand?

A little bit of conversation can be applied to ongoing problems, including (appropriately enough), what is true for the protection of the health of the assumptions is: means.

-= Thin healthy
-Fat content = Walking heart

What does the "thin" and "fat" perception is sliding scale, but why don't we take Me

Loricious is approximately 180 pounds, standing about 5 ' 3.5? 5 inches tall. I am the Caucasus NSDAP spread throughout Europe by way of exception, in English and Spanish a glaring. overall, the three words in my appearance: Good Breeding Stock.

With exception of the appointment of one individual doctors 2008 my physical health is excellent.Low blood pressure, high cholestrol, healthy lungs. I smoked for a long time, is the best eating habits, and was occasionally "active".

Never been told to lose weight.Never Even when I was in college. [1] [2] junior tipping the scales is 220 pounds and smoking in a Pack a day.

Loricious v. 2010 is much healthier. I haven't smoked since February 2008, I am down to 30 pounds in September 2008 onwards and I am physically alright and I-can-walk-and-jog-a-little shape.

But why am I still 180 pounds? Sooner or later my weight up to me I can stand for is likely to lose 30 pounds, according to the nature of the Powers referred to in the second that it would be not to mention the recommended 60 pounds.

I know that "dieting.". I know, even if it is a double "lifestyle changes." (I) you have even passed off all this because I want to be "Healthy."

But what does this even mean?

You have recently I realized that the physical health means more than that if I am still eating and who uses a means of healthy people, which is the only possible view, I will fail.

And I am * so * good is that I'm also * so * it on top of each other.

Thus, the intangible discovery.In my mind and my spirit. as stated in the previous entries, I am finding that the more I practice, in my mind and my spirit, the more obstacles to (I) strengthening their own physical alas my part of the alignment.

Do not know why I am FAT: I eat Damn too paljon.ajan.ja I still struggle with getting over the handle.When I have a compulsion to hits Aalto, only really work if you do not know how to begin to fight with it, and if you agree. Meditation is a huge thing for me, spiritually and mentally.Starting to write again, it is also very useful in my mind.

I think that the more we embrace the notion that we are a 3 dimensional, that deal with Trinity is the key to our completeness of responses, more likely, we stop our bellies, quick-fixes, it can be established.

The fat is only a symptom of seriously folks.I am ready to start really digging the real problem.What about you?

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Is reading the stories or watch movies, in view of the damage?

Posted by Loricious day 9, 16 and 2010, Trinity with 1 comment

What about it I do not know about. [1] [2] y ' all ', but when I am in accordance with the stress I withdraw from books and movies.

Before my wedding, I spent a good portion of the morning Nenäni sunk into Harry Potter, even at the same time with the. I read, my wedding dress.

And it dawned on me last night that this practice of mine, my ultimate escape even above and beyond the food without forgetting the whole story about the real world, there is hardly any meditatiiviset.

Meditation is, in my opinion, is present.Lose yourself in your own environment, as a matter of fact, reality, regardless of how painful or acute appropriate feelings.

Yet I decide to take my back to reality, all the time, book TV series. [1] [2].

Is this overcapacity Should I put down?, the book and start to face the reality of more often? Is that Why I can easily get through multi-hour drive, because I think is totally not present?

No one is related to?

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Eating in Emptiness

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Posted by Loricious on 10/12/2010 in Main with No Comments

A post written during a lunch hour last Friday:
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Although this is sort of ironic to even post about this, let me tell you one of the things that I absolutely must improve on: negative self talk.

I still have moments of self ridicule, of treating my body so poorly despite the fact that only moments before I was swearing that I would treat it better.

But I don’t. As soon as the wave of compulsion hits, I drown in numbness to awake to a painfully full belly and a sinking feeling in the tum as well.

“I did it again,” I think.

Some times, more often than not these days, I don’t get that sinking feeling; I just am happy that I enjoyed a meal even if it was too large. Still… I am not immune to self-destruction.

But when I eat to avoid feeling, to induce the numbing coma that makes life bearable at that point in time, then I just feel awful about it.

And the Circle of Crap is complete.

*sigh*

I’m trying to find a life line when I find myself slipping away from reality, when I want to bury my head in the ground and not acknowledge that I am a part of this world but rather imagine myself what I should be, what I could be.

What I am not.

*deep breath*

I am sad because I miss my Mr. H. He is back in the Midwest for a few days, and even though I am enjoying my Me time, I’m filling the emptiness of his absence with food.

I need to embrace that discomfort of his absence. I need to feel it, know it, acknowledge it, because the effort of trying to ignore the feeling tends to destroy me.

I deserve better than that. Mr. H deserves better than that.

I love him, I love me. I forgive myself for my imperfections; I will love myself because of my imperfections. It’s ok. It isn’t the end of the world, and much of the weekend is left to sit back and truly worship who I am and what I can accomplish. He will return, and in the meantime he will be inside my heart as always.

It’ll be ok.

Hm! I already feel better!

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But I haven’t gotten around to making my own bagels or cream cheese despite the fact I know how to do both.

And the ability to create healthy, fresh food does not in and of itself wipe away the desire to pop in a Stouffer’s lasagna and call it a night.

What is wrong with instant food?

Two weeks ago, I would have responded with, “Meh, anything in moderation.” But now I wonder if that is what is killing our nation. Because we *say* moderation but we do otherwise. Also, most importantly, we aren’t really eating real food anymore.

Blame it on Michael Pollan and his manifesto In Defense of Food. His motto: Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.

Sounds easy, right? But it isn’t, if you really think about it. Farmer’s markets and “clean eating” is just coming into vogue; grocery stores still lure you down the aisles to tempt you with quick and easy meals that have very little real food in it. Read a label (I know you do anyway). But not the “nutrients.” Read that ingredient label. Like on a Sara Lee bread. Bread is really only supposed to be a combo of flour, yeast, water, and sugar (if you use milk, you wouldn’t even need the sugar). Sometimes eggs are tossed in for texture, salt for flavor, but that’s really is it. Now look at your bread.

What the heck is it? It isn’t bread. It is this science experiment engineered to give us maximum pleasure with removing untold amounts of nutrients in the process.

Getting to the meat of the matter:
The book blew my mind and finished shattering any confidence I have in taking any science at full face value. Especially nutritional science. One day we’re not supposed to eat eggs, then it is no bread, then it is more bran, then it is no butter but margarine but now margarine is going to kill us all.

Sigh. Aren’t you just tired of the nutritional world just NOT ADMITTING that they don’t know anything? It’s like the biology community stating as fact that they have discovered every last species on Earth and then discovering a brand new one the very next day. Of course, they don’t make those outrageous assumptions, but the realm of nutrition and food science does. They take whole, natural foods, make some ridiculous connection of some nutrient to heart disease (saturated fat), take it out of the food and replace it with something “better” (transfat), and then stand there and wonder why heart disease continues to increase. Oh, it is the transfats.

Whoops.

Well, I’m tired of the whoopsies. I’m ready to say “f-it” to every last piece of advice from any scientist who boasts that they have it all figured out. (Has anyone wondered why I keep throwing down the bullshit card each and every time a scientist announces that global warming is a human induced problem? GROWL!)

You know what probably won’t kill me? Whole foods. Foods from a garden, foods from farms that raise grass-fed cattle.

Ok: so what will I do when I go out and get myself a McDouble? Eat it, goddammit. Cuz I like me some plastic food sometimes.

But not for long. I’m not sure if it is too late for my eating choices to have an impact on my own health (i.e. has the damage already been done?) but if we do start a family my choices will impact our children.

Time for some tough choices.

It’s funny. I rely on the absolute truth of math, and yet I know sometimes 1+1 does not equal 2. I’m losing my faith in everything that I’ve trusted in. Does that suck, or is that an opportunity to inject more imagination and creativity and color in such a black and white scientific universe?

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Oh, me buttocks

Posted by Loricious on 10/6/2010 in Main with No Comments

They be sore.

I started yoga again this last Monday. My work offers classes at a reasonable price and I’ve desperately wanted to do it again but never got up the momentum to bust out the mat at home.

The result: my tush is achy. EVERYTHING is achy, more than a jog or a session on the recumbent bike. But these are the good hurts. These are the hurts that make me smile, that tells me YES I have definitely worked my body. We even did a little meditation so even my brain (brwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaains) got a little massage. AND I’m proud to say that after over 10 years of on and off yoga, I finally know how to properly do a downward facing dog. FINALLY.

My toe, on the other hand, is not just achy but it hurts. I didn’t stop to think about what yoga could do to aggravate my jumping injury, but it definitely made me hobble for the last two days. Tonight, after getting my nieces birthday gift done, I fully intend on immersing myself in a gloriously hot bath full of epsom salts and a glass of vino AND my Girl Who Kicked The Hornet’s Nest.

In other news, work is rocking my world, I’m enjoying the pups, Cat has regained most of his sanity, and life is just all-round good. I’m blogging even more now on some family blogs; actually I’m continuing to just write more often. I’m finally ready to utilize that creative outlet and so my life feels that much more complete.

I can’t explain it, but I have a feeling that most of y’all out there are creative in one way or another and find it extremely gratifying to just unload everything on to a canvas, into a song, onto notebook paper, into wood, into the clothes or costumes you create.

That is certainly exercising the mind and soul right there: being creative.

I don’t think I can bring this post back round to my butt so I’ll just leave it at that.

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